Having depression isn’t just some little game. It’s a lifestyle and it’s something you have to live with everyday. It can’t just go away. There are okay days and there are terrible days. It can hit you in the most heartbreaking ways or it can slowly creep through your every thought until its just there and crashes your moment. It makes you realize things aren’t as bad as they seem sometimes, and that the group of people you’re swimming in a lake with, right after you just got done two tracking are actually indeed your friends and it’s okay to have fun and laugh and smile because you haven’t done that I awhile. It also makes you realize that when you up and sit on shore alone that not a single one of those people asked you what was wrong, if you were okay, how things were going. No one cared that you were walking away from them because you couldn’t hold back the tears that abruptly stopped your laughing. Depression contradicts your life. There is no winning or losing. It never ends so there is no chance for an outcome.